19 February 2008

hello my blog readers. as most of you may (or may not) notice, my blog has not been updated in a while. even on weekends! however, i am pleased to announce that i am still alive and blogging.

as i recall, my last post was last Friday. so in this little post, i will recap on the last few days.

Saturday - i slothed the whole day away, doing almost nothing. i think whoever that controls fate was pretty pissed because i woke up on the middle of that night when my leg felt like it was attacked by mites or something. scratched until the itch stopped. which was not a good idea.

Sunday - woke up by seven and reach the driving school by seven thirty. it was supposed to start by eight but the guy is always not there on time. reached home by three. slept by eleven plus plus.

Monday - woke up even earlier because my little annoying brat siblings had school. so i had to wait even longer for a late driving teacher. reach home by five thirty. slept by ten plus.

Tuesday (today) - woke up early but there was a traffic jam. but i reached the driving school by seven twenty once again. one of the students were late and we had to wait until eight forty before the asshole he arrived. when i finally reach the driving academy where the exam was held, i was nervous till i couldn't eat until the exam was over. not to mention i had to have lunch by four. but still, fear is a good substitute for hunger. reach home by five. now it's six. the end.

















p.s. i managed to passed the driving exam.

How to Download Youtube Videos

this post is for Jasmine

alright. so, you want to download videos from youtube and you have no idea how? well, i'm about to tell you the easiest way for me to do it with this simple tutorial.

first thing first. use firefox. you don't want to use internet explorer for this as it is inconvenient. once you had firefox or already have it, you have to download an extension called unplug.
click to enlarge image. go to it's website (number one). then navigate to the download area and download it (number 2). when all download is completed, you will need to restart firefox. if all is done correctly, you will see a fish icon (number three).
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example:
lets say you are in youtube and you like this video. just click on the fish!
of course, it ain't that simple. you have to choose the right link to save. usually, you need to save the link that has the same name as shown in the address. but if you are on youtube, as long as the ending of the link is gibberish, then that's it. you can ignore the rest.
after clicking save, then you can save it in your wanted directory. give it a name and don't forget to add a [.flv] extension. this is very important.
then you're done! you now know how to save a youtube video into your computer. you can of course save content from other websites as well.

since this tutorial is suppose to teach you how to download the video only, i really shouldn't be teaching you how to watch the videos. but since i'm such a nice guy, i'll tell you.

just go to this site to download and install the program needed to open the files you save with the [.flv] extensions.

if there are anymore questions then e-mail me at sucker_d_polvis@yahoo.com

Corks and Chairs

looking through my things, i found two corks i kept from long ago. it reminded me off the good old days when i would cut it up into tiny pieces and burn them. anyway, here they are:


remember the metal things that come on top of the corks? its something that stop the cork from popping on it's own. inspired by an episode of a show i have forgotten, i modified the metal things into tiny chairs. my first attempt was on the far left. about a year after that, a got another metal thing and had a much better second trial. the third on the right was the least fragile:

not bad yes? no? here's a closer look on each:


so maybe now all of you will not neglect the other portions of a wine bottle anymore ya?

Voice Out

when was the last time you wanted something but was too afraid to ask? when was the last time that your fear held you back and you missed a chance of possibly getting what you want?

when the back of our minds hold us back, we miss many opportunities in life. lets disregard whether the actions you are about to take are positive or negative. had you actually taken the action in the first place?

lets say you want to eat fast food for dinner. but your parents do not usually do so. you are held back by this fact and decided not to ask because it is a lost cause. but what if you did? what if you just voiced out and said what was on your mind? what if you just asked? you parents might just agree, saying they haven't have fast food in a long time. the worse that can happen is that they disagree.

but here is an example Not to voice out. lets say you saw a bunch of bullies bullying a kid. if you voiced out to tell them to stop, you may as well end up as their next victim.

needless to say, it is important to voice out. but it is also important to know when to do so. voicing out at the wrong situations can be very damaging. in any situation, always remember, if you have nothing to lose, voice out.

Flash Elemental Tower Defense

edit.
i removed the embedded game because if i added posts, it would be blocked at the sides. anyway, just click on the links to play the game. it's very mind testing.

Flash Elemental TD
Flash Elemental TD 2

i managed to win the second version on my first try and i managed to win the first version when i got a walk through XD. anyways, have fun losing your temper.

Chinese New Year 2008

a little late to wish everyone a happy chinese new year i guess but at least this post shows that i'm still alive.

first three days of CNY was spent in Melacca where my grandparents were (father's side). drowned in boredom, i decided to start ransacking things in my grandparents house to see what can i take a picture of. i finally found a mechanical watch that is powered by winding. the watched belonged to my grandfather, easily making older than myself. however, i was shocked to see that it worked when i wound it up! but when i checked the time the next day, it seems it has sped up about 5 minutes. the old age of the watch must have affected its efficiency.

anyway, here is a look at it.

of course, you might not actually see the brand name from here cause i can't seem to take a clear shot at it. but i finally managed to take a picture of its winder from the side where it also has its name imprinted on it. (you may want to click on the image to make it load its original size)
besides this mechanical wound up watch, i decided to also take a picture of the wound up clock my grandfather had that was hung on the wall and used until today.
not bad eh?

the next three days were spent in kedah in my other grandparents house (mother's side). the only picture i managed to take there was of a 5 cent coin. however, the picture was not easy to take. my camera phone could only have about a 2 inch macro mode. with the help of two and a half magnifying glass, i managed to take a much larger picture of the coin without losing clarity.
time for a random picture. here is my little sister's teddy bear trying to drive us home from melacca.
cute yes? no? anyway, this reminds me of valentine. at least my friends are having a gathering so i won't be lonely as i thought. but still my heart is blue. haha.. an early happy valentine's day for everyone.

Supermagnet

a super magnet, or otherwise known as a neodymium magnet, is a very strong magnet that is composed of neodymium, iron, and boron. anyway, i'm not going to bore you with the scientific facts.

i bought 40 of these magnets last year that are in the shape of spheres. i believe there are graded N35 which makes them an average super magnet. in more than one occasion they had nipped my skin but i still like it as it is.

pictures:

arranged into 4 rings and stacked on one another:

made into 4 straight lines and combined:

combination that makes it look more or less like a ball:

super magnet bracelet anyone:

in this arrangement, all the super magnetic waves interconnect to form it into a combined 'bar' of super magnet:

you can keep turning and it will never end:

so what is so special here? it seems evident that a super magnet is stronger than a regular magnet but just how strong is it? according to wiki, it could lift off about 1300 times its original weight. just to give you a feel on how big my magnets are first:
as you can see, that is a one sen coin and two of my super magnets. 1300 times its own mass still sounds like a brag initially but after i tested it, i was surprised:
if you click on the image you can see the magnet as a shiny thing between the pole and the metal objects. the hammer, chisels were as heavy as the 3 spanner combined so no cheating here. mind you, the attempt to take this picture caused these tools to drop on the floor several times.

so i thought:'if one super magnet could lift these things, then if i take 20 and split them 5 each i could lift 8 times the weight. so i put everything (and a little more) into a metal toolbox and did this:
there is actually 8 'strings' of super magnets but 1 is being blocked from sight. when i did this, i thought that the toolbox was in the verge of dropping. but when i was taking it down, i still needed to apply some force. 1300 times its own mass indeed.

so why are such powerful magnets created anyway? well, they are used in many items around us such as in a hard disk and sometimes even in hand phones.

of course, the final conclusion of the post is that something small can still pack a punch.

Even More Poetry

flipping through my book f homemade poetry, i couldn't help noticing that i have some love themed poems too. of course when i say love themed, doesn't mean it can't have other elements. so here it is. please do not duplicate or steal without permission.

The Pain of Loving - 4 July 2007
loving you, is the most painful thing to do,
breaking me up inside, ripping me in two,
too long i have loved you, and it breaks me up inside,
too long i have been waiting, and inside i have only cried,

i need not you to be mine, i need you only beside me,
i only want you with me. why is it you can't see?
loving you, missing you, wanting you by me,
tied to these emotions, that i cannot break free,

no one is known to be perfect, but you are perfection defined,
you seem too much like a trap of greatness, in which i am confined,
willing to help your friends, and all of those around,
but never losing yourself, which keeps me much astound.

never felt so empty, yet never felt so full,
never felt so strange, as if neither hot nor cool,
i want you here, i want you gone, i see you everywhere,
lost in confusion, no where to turn, all i can do is stare.

Am I in Love - 6 July 2007
the first time i looked into your eyes,
there was a feeling i can't force to subside,
a feeling that i had never once felt,
a feeling that makes me just want to melt,

the art of your perfection, never once too shy,
the way you speak and move, has made the angels cry,
and i know i must speak the truth, i know i mustn't lie,
but you had lifted me up so high, without me letting you try,

what is this feeling that i can't seem to comprehend?
is she an enemy? or maybe just a friend?
am i insane, to want her for who she is?
or am i in love, to have feelings such as these?

Life Can be Short - 3 August 2007
today as i walked home i saw a dead frog,
though i had walked on, i was left with a thought,
life begins, lives on, and it has its own fate,
but one day will come when it eventually is dead,

life, like a rope, has a beginning and an end,
it may be just a matter of how, where, and when,
you may live for the present, future, or past,
but never stop living, for it is more than just a task,

so if you care for someone, please tell them today,
for you may not have many chances to take their breath away,
be it a poem, a card, or even a homemade song,
for who knows, whether the time that remains is either short or long,

to you, there are a thousand of things i want to say,
but fear within me has kept me silent up until this day,
life can be very short, there are things that we can't do,
so in case something ever happens to me, just know that i love you.

all poems on my blog were written by myself unless otherwise stated. please ask permission before using, duplicating, modifying, or posting it in your own site/blog/etc.

More Poetry

after i updated on my previous post of valentine poems, i flipped through my book of homemade poetry and found i had some other poems that have themes of loneliness. one of which has already been posted. although it also has a very depressing theme. so here are the rest of my poems which are either about loneliness or just plain depressing. please do not duplicate or steal without permission.

Alone - 12 June 2007
where is the pause when darkness surrounds?
where is the cause, why none can be found?
alone, filled with emptiness,
the feeling of null and loneliness,

gone is the wind of fate,
gone is the strength of courage,
gone is all that is great,
not even the remains of rage,

isolation, an island alone,
pools of emotion but never once shown,

falling,
an abyss of darkness waiting,
solitude begins to be sane,
sane caused by an endless pain,

yet common i feel these things to be,
for no one can see the way i see,
things i neither say nor show,
being alone for so long and therefore i know.

Death - 15 August 2007
it is, in a way, a matter of where,
somewhere in the world, maybe here, maybe there,
it is, in a way, also about time,
when the birds start to sing, or when the clock chimes,
it is, in a way, of how it will happen,
never knowing when it does, but causes moods to dampen,

it is death, some have feared, and some don't give a damn,
it is inevitable, unpredictable, and also where i am,
many have tried to avoid it, but it is what i'm searching for,
it is something i have found, and i couldn't ask for more.

I Cry Inside - 25 October 2007
the problem with crying inside, is that the tears are hard to dry,
the sadness within doesn't truly subside and it makes you want to die,

the sadness within that forever will stay,
for it cannot escape, it has no other way,
the endless abyss of sadness and sorrow,
the feeling that makes you want to see no tomorrow,

death, much have feared, much have tried to avoid,
yet it is death, around me it has coiled,
it is an alternative, much better than eternal suffering,
it is the path i have chosen, and because so, i am no longer dying.

all poems on my blog were written by myself unless otherwise stated. please ask permission before using, duplicating, modifying, or posting it in your own site/blog/etc.

Keyboard

(since i never had much posts with personal pictures, this post will have 12 very personal pictures exposing my very personal friend. Maximum Exposure! you have been warned)

i was never satisfied with the keyboard i was using. its keys were too hard to press on and there were times when i wasn't sure whether or not i have pressed a key. so what happens when a guy gets bored in this situation?

i went to the store room and discovered my favorite keyboard sitting in a corner, dusting away. i picked it up and recalled that i once bought a DIN to PS/2 converter for it so i can use an old keyboard with a newer computer.

i brought the dusty keyboard into the house and searched for the port converter. my heart leaped for joy in finding on my study table. but looking at the keyboard, i decided it needed a good bath. what more can i say when i have seen such a sight. next thing i knew i was holding a screwdriver in my hand and was beginning to open up the poor old keyboard.

after cutting it open, i began to pop each key and wiped it squeaky clean with a damp cloth. not wanting to mess up the key arrangement, i arranged the clean keys in its original positions on the floor. i did all this on the floor by the way.

2 rows done in 20 minutes:

3rd row done in 17 minutes:

4th row in 11 minutes:

numbers and backspace in another 11 minutes:

escape and function buttons in yet another 11 minutes:

13 buttons in 8 minutes:

all keys finished in the next 11 minutes:

spent the next nine minutes cleaning its body with water and soap, scrubbing it to ensure cleanliness:

i placed its innards on the body so can have a 'x-ray' feel of how it looks inside. the brain is at the top right:

a closer look at the brain of my lovely keyboard:

a look at the body from the inside with its keys and partial innards in place after it has dried:
i spent about half an hour just to put the keys back in place.the hardest key to place was the ' enter' key. since it has 2 metal pieces under it, it proved to be a challenge. second hardest was the space bar as it has 1 metal piece. all other pieces had no metal pieces and so was quite easy to reinstate their positions.

but putting the keys wasn't even half way out of the woods. aligning its innards and placing its brains was easy. but after closing it up, it had to be reopened several times to reposition its partial innards under each button. after resisting many times of giving up, i have finally reassembled it.


as you can see it has a DIM port and not a PS/2 port. this is why a converter is essential, which i happen to have. *laughs*

of course, forcing everything into a box is easy but i had to make sure it survived the thorough cleaning otherwise there is no point anyway. i connected it to the converter then to the computer. i typed the letter 'i'. a letter ' i' appeared. yes!!! it's alive! IT'S ALIVE!!!!!!!!

the most comfortable keyboard i had in my life is now alive and in use in my new computer! Muahahahaha... i am typing this with my 'new' old keyboard. cleaning it was hard work but it paid off. i feel so proud of myself just looking at the keyboard that looks like its still brand new. even my typing speed increased. and all done in 2 hours and 45 minutes.

so i decided, since valentine's day promises no present for me (except last year. exchange among friends), i decided that this is an early valentine gift from me to me! what more can i give myself besides the most comfortable keyboard in existance. with keys that are neither too hard now soft, i feel like i don't want to stop typing! this keyboard must have been hand crafted by a god and charmed by night elves. it probably was enchanted by warlocks too.

i love my keyboard. it is my valentine.

Valentine II

a poem for valentine's day. might add more.

untitled poem
valentine,a day so divine,
everything seems like its going fine,
not a word of sadness,
not even a taunt,
surrounded by happiness,
and behaviors of flaunt,
so make a wish, as here comes a shooting star,
may your valentine this year be the best one so far.

a lonely valentine
a day of lovers, happiness and joy,
why do i still feel like a broken toy?
abandoned and lost, in an isolated shack,
trapped in the darkness, brightness i lack,
as i watched people around me smile and talk,
without noticing me as they held hands and walked,
they went about their business of love and care,
but to look at me, i believe no one would even dare,
alone on a day when people would meet up and pair,
regardless of age, height, even colors of their hair,
to express their love, any price they would pay,
but for me to be lonely, i guess it's like any other day.

Blue

the song from a previous post regarding a tribute to elfen lied. in that video (condemned memoirs), the song that was used is sung by The Birthday Massacre. the title of the song is Blue.

here is the original video. (warning: decapitation)



here is the lyrics just in case you can't hear the words clearly:

Plastic blue
Invitations in my room
I've been waiting here for you
Reservations made for two

Sunlight fading
Black tongues speak faster than the car can crash
You supply the rumours
And I'll provide the wrath

Romance is breaking every heart in two
Casting shadows in the pale shade of blue

Plastic blue
Conversations in my room
Saving every tear for you
Trusting every word untrue

Twilight fading
Fate changes faster than the death of light
You supply the envy
And I'll provide the spite

Reflections cutting every face in two
Casting shadows in the pale shade of blue

their official site: http://www.thebirthdaymassacre.com/

Valentine 2008

although valentine (and christmas actually) passes by like any other day for me, it gets annoying to be in a 'pink' atmosphere. the talking and the giggling and the messages and so much more that touches my nerve. fortunately they never declare a holiday for such an occasion or every valentine i might be out having a massacre.

anyhow, since i'm no longer in school for now, my nerves seem to have no disturbance. however, Eliza linked me very nice song and i thought:"just because valentine means nothing to me, no harm in trying to blend in, right?" so i decided to go with the flow and embed the link Eliza showed me. and more.

DJ Sammy's version of Like a Rose and Heaven:





on the side note of it all, valentine shouldn't be too pinkish. it should be reddish. like a red rose. red. blood red. glorious blood red. that's what valentine should be like. a massacre. everyone should send red roses that still have their thorns. then when their partner finally pricked their fingers, you can go over and suck their fingers and taste the colour that runs in everyone's veins. HAHAHA!!! blood! BLOOD!!

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Massacre most commonly refers to individual events of deliberate and direct mass killing. from here.
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If

if for every ten minutes i am angry i would cause something to die, every species on the face of the planet would be extinct by now.

if for every time my rage almost exceeds my control i would generate heat, the planet's only source of moisture would be saliva.

if for every time my rage does exceeds my control i would explode, the planet would have quite a number of large craters.

if for every time i cried a tear the world would see sunlight, then everyone would be in eternal darkness.

if for every time i am happy rain would fall, then there may be only enough water to plant weeds.

if every moment of physical pain i felt is converted into lightning, the world would have very regular storms.

if every moment of emotional pain i felt is converted into electricity, i could light up the world for life.

if every time i felt numb and alone a wave would rush towards the shore, then tsunami's would have destroyed the world by now.

if for every moment i felt like committing suicide a drop of blood would drip from me, then i may as well be dead by now.

if for every time i wanted to slit my wrist a slice of bread was created, then the world would never be in hunger.

if for every time life felt pointless i would paint a picture, then the world's supply of painting material would be finish.

if for every time i had a murderous intent i actually killed someone, humans would be extinct.

if for every time i wanted to cut myself but didn't i would download a song, then i would have downloaded all songs in existence by now.

if for every time i felt death was better then life someone would get a superpower, then everybody would be super heroes and villain.

if every time i smiled naturally the sky would be clear, then the sky would be gray most of the time.

if every time i feel disconnected from the world a hair would fall, then everybody would be bald.

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"Pain, without love, Pain, I can't get enough, Pain, I like it rough Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all"

that is the chorus and the first part of a song by 'three days grace' with the title 'pain'. after hearing the song, i realized it was also the reason why i cut myself when i was depressed. quote:"i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all"



bloody awesome song i found three days ago. hell yea.

THREE DAYS GRACE LYRICS

"Pain"

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain

I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain