cans of coffee X2 + red bull (both the silver & red) = stay awake the whole night.
this cannot be good for health right? i even had lack of sleep the night before.
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what happens when you drink a concoction that has a large tablespoon of indocafe and double the amount of sugar? for me, i get a stomach ache. but combined with what i had above, i think i just shortened my lifespan. i'll probably die of kidney failure.
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the agenda for today will be:
*drum roll*
the awesome-ness of being me!
o.O
i am awesome and you know it. the end.
27 November 2008
25 November 2008
Calm and Steady
i managed to cool down by now. i still feel sucky but at least i'm not suicidal anymore~
24 November 2008
Considering Suicide
to live on is to give yourself a chance to try and improve and change beginning from the following moments on.
i'm getting tired of trying.
free me from this boundary of flesh and bone
my body holds not the capacity for me to live
in a world of such great filth
where lies and deceit surrounds
the brain is merely flesh
but the mind is boundless
kill me now and set me free
let me walk the earth with my ideologies and not my feet
let me smell the clear air that we have failed to preserve
and let me taste the sweet wine of death
cut me lose and let me fall
down the path of freedom where everything is possible
let me fall into the abyss where the body is no longer our container
but our soul itself that sustains its own life
let me see the great visions that our minds have yet to perceive
cut my strings and let me loose of my puppeteer
and let me wander free
free into the world of unknown greatness
and eternal bliss
just let me die and set me free.
i'm getting tired of trying.
free me from this boundary of flesh and bone
my body holds not the capacity for me to live
in a world of such great filth
where lies and deceit surrounds
the brain is merely flesh
but the mind is boundless
kill me now and set me free
let me walk the earth with my ideologies and not my feet
let me smell the clear air that we have failed to preserve
and let me taste the sweet wine of death
cut me lose and let me fall
down the path of freedom where everything is possible
let me fall into the abyss where the body is no longer our container
but our soul itself that sustains its own life
let me see the great visions that our minds have yet to perceive
cut my strings and let me loose of my puppeteer
and let me wander free
free into the world of unknown greatness
and eternal bliss
just let me die and set me free.
Ladies and Gentlemen, may I have you attention Pur-Lease!!!
do you wake up with shame and despair, and find that pillow is covered with hair~
hardyharhar... that first line was from Sweetney Todd by the way..
yes, yes, i am alive. i'm not dead. don't miss me or anything.
*blows dust off my blog*
alrighty then, let's start the day with a few things i want (i'm needy, i know)
1. i want to learn to draw manga
2. i want a fridge
3. to get a fridge i need a 4.0 average so i also want a 4.0 average
4. i want coffee that can actually allow me to not sleep instead of cutting my sleep time in half
5. i want to watch lotsa anime
6. i want high speed internet connection
7. i want to mod my old resurrected keyboard to be usb and have a few usb ports on the keyboard itself
thats it for now. if i add anymore things to the list, i will start listing unrealistic items...
on to the real show.
the specialty of today's menu is:
my heart is blue~
let's face it, given a chance, everybody wants to find their soul mate. but the thing is, if you are with a person now, is that person really the one?
the world is a broken place where many cannot be trusted. we fall in and out of love. and sometimes, when we find someone that clicks incredibly well, we think he/she is the one. this, of course, is very possible. but there is also a possibility the person is a fraud and a total arse.
is there really a way to know if they are for real?
ladies and gentlemen, if you read many chain mails that tell you how, then what takes away the possibility that these frauds are getting their information from there as well?
we never really know who to trust in this planet. we can only truly love and trust ourselves. because when we put our lives into the hands of our lover, we are filled with doubt.
so the million dollar question is, can you live your life with your partner without a trace of doubt and without an inkling of fear that they may leave you?
to love and be loved is the greatest thing that has been bestowed upon us.
we search eternally for a happy ending that only exist when we let it. but with so much hate and doubt in the wold, not many have found such a thing.
our partners in life are only flesh and bone. can you love them beyond that? can you see pass the illusion of the flesh and truly see whats in their minds? can you truly love them for who they are and not only their bodies? true love is but a rare beauty many have failed to find.
hardyharhar... that first line was from Sweetney Todd by the way..
yes, yes, i am alive. i'm not dead. don't miss me or anything.
*blows dust off my blog*
alrighty then, let's start the day with a few things i want (i'm needy, i know)
1. i want to learn to draw manga
2. i want a fridge
3. to get a fridge i need a 4.0 average so i also want a 4.0 average
4. i want coffee that can actually allow me to not sleep instead of cutting my sleep time in half
5. i want to watch lotsa anime
6. i want high speed internet connection
7. i want to mod my old resurrected keyboard to be usb and have a few usb ports on the keyboard itself
thats it for now. if i add anymore things to the list, i will start listing unrealistic items...
on to the real show.
the specialty of today's menu is:
my heart is blue~let's face it, given a chance, everybody wants to find their soul mate. but the thing is, if you are with a person now, is that person really the one?
the world is a broken place where many cannot be trusted. we fall in and out of love. and sometimes, when we find someone that clicks incredibly well, we think he/she is the one. this, of course, is very possible. but there is also a possibility the person is a fraud and a total arse.
is there really a way to know if they are for real?
ladies and gentlemen, if you read many chain mails that tell you how, then what takes away the possibility that these frauds are getting their information from there as well?
we never really know who to trust in this planet. we can only truly love and trust ourselves. because when we put our lives into the hands of our lover, we are filled with doubt.
so the million dollar question is, can you live your life with your partner without a trace of doubt and without an inkling of fear that they may leave you?
to love and be loved is the greatest thing that has been bestowed upon us.
we search eternally for a happy ending that only exist when we let it. but with so much hate and doubt in the wold, not many have found such a thing.
our partners in life are only flesh and bone. can you love them beyond that? can you see pass the illusion of the flesh and truly see whats in their minds? can you truly love them for who they are and not only their bodies? true love is but a rare beauty many have failed to find.
05 November 2008
5112008
today, i learned something interesting. you see, by the end of the day, when you really think about it, how many real friends do you have out there? how many would take a bullet for you? how many would risk drowning for you? how many would know when you are joking or when you are not?
friendship is something that can take a lifetime to create but an instant to destroy. yet, the love of friendship can survive through the roughest waves and warm you when you are cold.
friendship is like a diamond. its beautiful. its sparkle can blind others. it can cut through any trouble. but like diamonds, friendship requires time and effort. but for something beautiful that can last forever, one must agree it is worth it.
so what have i learned today? i learned that i actually have such friends.
friendship is something that can take a lifetime to create but an instant to destroy. yet, the love of friendship can survive through the roughest waves and warm you when you are cold.
friendship is like a diamond. its beautiful. its sparkle can blind others. it can cut through any trouble. but like diamonds, friendship requires time and effort. but for something beautiful that can last forever, one must agree it is worth it.
so what have i learned today? i learned that i actually have such friends.
14 October 2008
Augmented Reality
augmented reality.
go read it up for more details.
i'm not gonna explain it here.
but these are some cool videos that utilizes it:
(both videos get funky from the middle. so please bear with the slow start.)
go read it up for more details.
i'm not gonna explain it here.
but these are some cool videos that utilizes it:
(both videos get funky from the middle. so please bear with the slow start.)
17 September 2008
28 August 2008
The Ultimate Answer
the answer to life, the universe, and everything else, is perception.
as simple as that. in fact, its so simple, it's almost self explanatory.
we see, feel, touch and so on. but all of which depends on our perception to see it as it is. for example, pain. with a strong will of mind, one can surely ignore this sensation. this depends on your perception. if one simply does not perceive pain as pain, instead, perceive it as nothing, then one can ignore it.
get it? no? let's try another example.
chair. something we sit on. usually paired with a table so we can do more things, like eat, or homework. chair. just one word. but if i perceive a chair as a table, what would i get? a table! assuming of course that i sit on the floor or a shorter chair.
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the answer to life is perception. friends, jobs, assignments, kids, and so on. there are always times when these things begin to be difficult to stand. but as long as we perceive to be something that we can handle, then why not? its not the easiest thing to make a hard thing easy, but if we perceive it to be so, it is only a matter of time before we find a way to achieve it in that fashion.
the answer to the universe is perception. planets, stars, moons, and so on. if one is to really think about it, we are but less than a microscopic dot in the map of the universe. and yet, we exist. is it irrational to perceive that everything outside of our galaxy has absolutely no effect on us? but, this is a sensitive topic among astronomers, hence, i shall ignore.
but what about a star? a star is simply a sun very far from earth, we merely perceive it as a star. is it wrong to perceive our sun as a gigantic star? in the end, its just the matter of which point of view you are seeing the things outside our planet.
the answer to everything else is perception. difficult decisions, debt, yes or no, life or death, and so on. we are constantly surrounded by difficult choices. in contrast, we are also surrounded by easy choices as well. but when we think about the choices we should make, it is not uncommon to be panicking. should i have done this? should i have married him? so many questions, so little time. but in the end, we can say that the answer is anything you perceive it to be. you might have a different answer as me in many questions but even so, why shouldn't that answer be correct?
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perception. a magical word.
to me, a closed room may mean a sense of security. to you, a closed room may mean evil secrets. why not? that could be it after all.
by the end of the day, it is perception that purely defines us. the thing that makes us so different. the thing that has single handedly caused war and brought peace. the reason why we are different, is because of this same reason.
as simple as that. in fact, its so simple, it's almost self explanatory.
we see, feel, touch and so on. but all of which depends on our perception to see it as it is. for example, pain. with a strong will of mind, one can surely ignore this sensation. this depends on your perception. if one simply does not perceive pain as pain, instead, perceive it as nothing, then one can ignore it.
get it? no? let's try another example.
chair. something we sit on. usually paired with a table so we can do more things, like eat, or homework. chair. just one word. but if i perceive a chair as a table, what would i get? a table! assuming of course that i sit on the floor or a shorter chair.
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the answer to life is perception. friends, jobs, assignments, kids, and so on. there are always times when these things begin to be difficult to stand. but as long as we perceive to be something that we can handle, then why not? its not the easiest thing to make a hard thing easy, but if we perceive it to be so, it is only a matter of time before we find a way to achieve it in that fashion.
the answer to the universe is perception. planets, stars, moons, and so on. if one is to really think about it, we are but less than a microscopic dot in the map of the universe. and yet, we exist. is it irrational to perceive that everything outside of our galaxy has absolutely no effect on us? but, this is a sensitive topic among astronomers, hence, i shall ignore.
but what about a star? a star is simply a sun very far from earth, we merely perceive it as a star. is it wrong to perceive our sun as a gigantic star? in the end, its just the matter of which point of view you are seeing the things outside our planet.
the answer to everything else is perception. difficult decisions, debt, yes or no, life or death, and so on. we are constantly surrounded by difficult choices. in contrast, we are also surrounded by easy choices as well. but when we think about the choices we should make, it is not uncommon to be panicking. should i have done this? should i have married him? so many questions, so little time. but in the end, we can say that the answer is anything you perceive it to be. you might have a different answer as me in many questions but even so, why shouldn't that answer be correct?
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perception. a magical word.
to me, a closed room may mean a sense of security. to you, a closed room may mean evil secrets. why not? that could be it after all.
by the end of the day, it is perception that purely defines us. the thing that makes us so different. the thing that has single handedly caused war and brought peace. the reason why we are different, is because of this same reason.
03 June 2008
My Brain Is
... dead.
okaie~ as you guessed it, no results from polls cause nobody wants a english comic/movie. well, life goes on.
2 major things happened since i last had a post:
i) i actually went to the wesak day whatchacallit this year
ii) i have officially retired from GSC!!!!
wesak:
and GSC:
anyways, gonna miss them a little i guess..
just a mini update on my life.
next time, an intelligent post: the answer to life, the universe, and everything else.
okaie~ as you guessed it, no results from polls cause nobody wants a english comic/movie. well, life goes on.
2 major things happened since i last had a post:
i) i actually went to the wesak day whatchacallit this year
ii) i have officially retired from GSC!!!!
wesak:
and GSC:
anyways, gonna miss them a little i guess..
just a mini update on my life.
next time, an intelligent post: the answer to life, the universe, and everything else.
20 May 2008
I Love
I love me.
yes i know it's pretty random but at least it's true.
and no, i will not copy paste the poll comment. cause its the right answer. in fact, i was kind of disappointed. i was hoping to get some weird answers before i got the correct one. guess the only people who read my blog have quality brains.
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alrighty then, let's get a move on with the update of my life.
1) i stop work this wednesday (yippee yeah!)
2) i slept 10 hours today and i'm still tired (boo..)
3)erm.. that's about it.
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alright, since i haven't completely created a full concept of a new idea for thinking too much, here comes another poll.
q:
what comic book would you like to see next on the big screens?
a:
ok, you have to give your personal opinions on this one cause i don't want to risk pissing off anyone in case i didn't mention any particular graphic novel, comic issue, or manga.
although, personally, i want to see iron man volume 4:extremis turned into a movie. hehe..
comment will temporarily be open for anonymous comments to allow others whom i do not know to vote for this one. votes will be compiled and arranged by number of votes. if every comic was only mentioned once, i will just list it out anyway.
and finally, vote! Vote! VOTE!
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