i managed to cool down by now. i still feel sucky but at least i'm not suicidal anymore~
Showing posts with label suicide. Show all posts
Showing posts with label suicide. Show all posts
25 November 2008
24 November 2008
Considering Suicide
to live on is to give yourself a chance to try and improve and change beginning from the following moments on.
i'm getting tired of trying.
free me from this boundary of flesh and bone
my body holds not the capacity for me to live
in a world of such great filth
where lies and deceit surrounds
the brain is merely flesh
but the mind is boundless
kill me now and set me free
let me walk the earth with my ideologies and not my feet
let me smell the clear air that we have failed to preserve
and let me taste the sweet wine of death
cut me lose and let me fall
down the path of freedom where everything is possible
let me fall into the abyss where the body is no longer our container
but our soul itself that sustains its own life
let me see the great visions that our minds have yet to perceive
cut my strings and let me loose of my puppeteer
and let me wander free
free into the world of unknown greatness
and eternal bliss
just let me die and set me free.
i'm getting tired of trying.
free me from this boundary of flesh and bone
my body holds not the capacity for me to live
in a world of such great filth
where lies and deceit surrounds
the brain is merely flesh
but the mind is boundless
kill me now and set me free
let me walk the earth with my ideologies and not my feet
let me smell the clear air that we have failed to preserve
and let me taste the sweet wine of death
cut me lose and let me fall
down the path of freedom where everything is possible
let me fall into the abyss where the body is no longer our container
but our soul itself that sustains its own life
let me see the great visions that our minds have yet to perceive
cut my strings and let me loose of my puppeteer
and let me wander free
free into the world of unknown greatness
and eternal bliss
just let me die and set me free.
03 February 2008
If
if for every ten minutes i am angry i would cause something to die, every species on the face of the planet would be extinct by now.
if for every time my rage almost exceeds my control i would generate heat, the planet's only source of moisture would be saliva.
if for every time my rage does exceeds my control i would explode, the planet would have quite a number of large craters.
if for every time i cried a tear the world would see sunlight, then everyone would be in eternal darkness.
if for every time i am happy rain would fall, then there may be only enough water to plant weeds.
if every moment of physical pain i felt is converted into lightning, the world would have very regular storms.
if every moment of emotional pain i felt is converted into electricity, i could light up the world for life.
if every time i felt numb and alone a wave would rush towards the shore, then tsunami's would have destroyed the world by now.
if for every moment i felt like committing suicide a drop of blood would drip from me, then i may as well be dead by now.
if for every time i wanted to slit my wrist a slice of bread was created, then the world would never be in hunger.
if for every time life felt pointless i would paint a picture, then the world's supply of painting material would be finish.
if for every time i had a murderous intent i actually killed someone, humans would be extinct.
if for every time i wanted to cut myself but didn't i would download a song, then i would have downloaded all songs in existence by now.
if for every time i felt death was better then life someone would get a superpower, then everybody would be super heroes and villain.
if every time i smiled naturally the sky would be clear, then the sky would be gray most of the time.
if every time i feel disconnected from the world a hair would fall, then everybody would be bald.
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"Pain, without love, Pain, I can't get enough, Pain, I like it rough Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all"
that is the chorus and the first part of a song by 'three days grace' with the title 'pain'. after hearing the song, i realized it was also the reason why i cut myself when i was depressed. quote:"i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all"
bloody awesome song i found three days ago. hell yea.
THREE DAYS GRACE LYRICS
"Pain"
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
if for every time my rage almost exceeds my control i would generate heat, the planet's only source of moisture would be saliva.
if for every time my rage does exceeds my control i would explode, the planet would have quite a number of large craters.
if for every time i cried a tear the world would see sunlight, then everyone would be in eternal darkness.
if for every time i am happy rain would fall, then there may be only enough water to plant weeds.
if every moment of physical pain i felt is converted into lightning, the world would have very regular storms.
if every moment of emotional pain i felt is converted into electricity, i could light up the world for life.
if every time i felt numb and alone a wave would rush towards the shore, then tsunami's would have destroyed the world by now.
if for every moment i felt like committing suicide a drop of blood would drip from me, then i may as well be dead by now.
if for every time i wanted to slit my wrist a slice of bread was created, then the world would never be in hunger.
if for every time life felt pointless i would paint a picture, then the world's supply of painting material would be finish.
if for every time i had a murderous intent i actually killed someone, humans would be extinct.
if for every time i wanted to cut myself but didn't i would download a song, then i would have downloaded all songs in existence by now.
if for every time i felt death was better then life someone would get a superpower, then everybody would be super heroes and villain.
if every time i smiled naturally the sky would be clear, then the sky would be gray most of the time.
if every time i feel disconnected from the world a hair would fall, then everybody would be bald.
***************************************************
"Pain, without love, Pain, I can't get enough, Pain, I like it rough Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all"
that is the chorus and the first part of a song by 'three days grace' with the title 'pain'. after hearing the song, i realized it was also the reason why i cut myself when i was depressed. quote:"i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all"
bloody awesome song i found three days ago. hell yea.
THREE DAYS GRACE LYRICS
"Pain"
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me I've got a plan
When the lights go off you will understand
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing
Rather feel pain
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you're wounded
You know (You know you know you know you know)
That I'm here to save you
You know (You know you know you know you know)
I'm always here for you
I know (I know I know I know I know)
That you'll thank me later
Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
31 January 2008
Suicide
due to the recent departure of my grandmother from this world, i will post something about life and death that i have been long putting off.
first, consider a car ride to a destination. you get in the car, the car starts moving, then when you finally reach your destination, you stop.
consider the starting of life to be the starting of a journey. and consider death to be the ending of that journey. life, can be seen as only one thing: a journey.
the beginning and the end of life is something equally amazing and horrifying. we live knowing we will die. however, it is what we do during our life that truly matters. similar to driving, we must always make sure we drive carefully.
we live our life like driving a car. we try to make sure we follow the rules (and break some on purpose sometimes) and abide by the law. but although we try so hard, there will always be times when we are challenged to break the law, be it big (killing?) or small (littering?).
like a journey by car, life also has its bumps and times of uncomfort. there will also be times when one wishes time flows faster. and finally, times when you need to refuel.
life as one knows it, is precious and we should guard it well. because the only way life is dissimilar from a car ride is that if life stops, it cannot be started again. when one dies, there is no longer a second chance to live. the window of time that allows a dying person to save him/herself is often small and therefore, one can easily conclude that life is fragile and worth guarding.
why is it then, that there are people who wish to commit suicide? why is it that these people do not appreciate their lives?
when we look out the window of the car of our life's journey, we sometimes see beautiful things. and sometimes, ugly things. when people see too much of ugly things for too long, they crash their car to end their lives prematurely. in real life, one would never crash a car due to horrible sightings but in metaphor, why would any person be so willing to crash their cars (end their lives)?
a human being's brain is hard wired to live. that is why you can't hypnotize yourself to die. but the brain, being powerful as it is, is capable of making you die by pure will. if all you think about is death, eventually, the body begins to break down. immunity level drops. causing the body to be in high risk of illnesses. eventually killing the body.
if all you think about is suicide, eventually, the brain finds ways to do so. but why would a person be even edged to thinking about suicide when everyone knows that there is no 'undo' button for death?
suicide = a fatal escape
when one Wants suicide, one Wants an escape. a means to run away from a problem that seems to hard to resolve. suicide, in their minds, is the only way out.
this post is not intended to make you want or not want to commit suicide. rather, it is supposed to make you realize that suicide is not an answer.
we know if we live, there is a chance to solve a problem. we know if we live, there is more experience to be gained, more joy to be met, more happiness we can aquire. if we die, we know nothing. we know not of where we go after we die. death is just a picture we can't paint.
life is a journey. a journey that will eventually lead many to happiness, and lead some to sadness. if we end that journey, we can no longer move forward to make our lives better. whether you lead a life of joy or grief, as long as you Live, you can do something about it.
first, consider a car ride to a destination. you get in the car, the car starts moving, then when you finally reach your destination, you stop.
consider the starting of life to be the starting of a journey. and consider death to be the ending of that journey. life, can be seen as only one thing: a journey.
the beginning and the end of life is something equally amazing and horrifying. we live knowing we will die. however, it is what we do during our life that truly matters. similar to driving, we must always make sure we drive carefully.
we live our life like driving a car. we try to make sure we follow the rules (and break some on purpose sometimes) and abide by the law. but although we try so hard, there will always be times when we are challenged to break the law, be it big (killing?) or small (littering?).
like a journey by car, life also has its bumps and times of uncomfort. there will also be times when one wishes time flows faster. and finally, times when you need to refuel.
life as one knows it, is precious and we should guard it well. because the only way life is dissimilar from a car ride is that if life stops, it cannot be started again. when one dies, there is no longer a second chance to live. the window of time that allows a dying person to save him/herself is often small and therefore, one can easily conclude that life is fragile and worth guarding.
why is it then, that there are people who wish to commit suicide? why is it that these people do not appreciate their lives?
when we look out the window of the car of our life's journey, we sometimes see beautiful things. and sometimes, ugly things. when people see too much of ugly things for too long, they crash their car to end their lives prematurely. in real life, one would never crash a car due to horrible sightings but in metaphor, why would any person be so willing to crash their cars (end their lives)?
a human being's brain is hard wired to live. that is why you can't hypnotize yourself to die. but the brain, being powerful as it is, is capable of making you die by pure will. if all you think about is death, eventually, the body begins to break down. immunity level drops. causing the body to be in high risk of illnesses. eventually killing the body.
if all you think about is suicide, eventually, the brain finds ways to do so. but why would a person be even edged to thinking about suicide when everyone knows that there is no 'undo' button for death?
suicide = a fatal escape
when one Wants suicide, one Wants an escape. a means to run away from a problem that seems to hard to resolve. suicide, in their minds, is the only way out.
this post is not intended to make you want or not want to commit suicide. rather, it is supposed to make you realize that suicide is not an answer.
we know if we live, there is a chance to solve a problem. we know if we live, there is more experience to be gained, more joy to be met, more happiness we can aquire. if we die, we know nothing. we know not of where we go after we die. death is just a picture we can't paint.
life is a journey. a journey that will eventually lead many to happiness, and lead some to sadness. if we end that journey, we can no longer move forward to make our lives better. whether you lead a life of joy or grief, as long as you Live, you can do something about it.
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