Ladies and Gentlemen, may I have you attention Pur-Lease!!!

do you wake up with shame and despair, and find that pillow is covered with hair~
hardyharhar... that first line was from Sweetney Todd by the way..

yes, yes, i am alive. i'm not dead. don't miss me or anything.

*blows dust off my blog*

alrighty then, let's start the day with a few things i want (i'm needy, i know)
1. i want to learn to draw manga
2. i want a fridge
3. to get a fridge i need a 4.0 average so i also want a 4.0 average
4. i want coffee that can actually allow me to not sleep instead of cutting my sleep time in half
5. i want to watch lotsa anime
6. i want high speed internet connection
7. i want to mod my old resurrected keyboard to be usb and have a few usb ports on the keyboard itself

thats it for now. if i add anymore things to the list, i will start listing unrealistic items...

on to the real show.

the specialty of today's menu is:
my heart is blue~
let's face it, given a chance, everybody wants to find their soul mate. but the thing is, if you are with a person now, is that person really the one?

the world is a broken place where many cannot be trusted. we fall in and out of love. and sometimes, when we find someone that clicks incredibly well, we think he/she is the one. this, of course, is very possible. but there is also a possibility the person is a fraud and a total arse.

is there really a way to know if they are for real?

ladies and gentlemen, if you read many chain mails that tell you how, then what takes away the possibility that these frauds are getting their information from there as well?

we never really know who to trust in this planet. we can only truly love and trust ourselves. because when we put our lives into the hands of our lover, we are filled with doubt.

so the million dollar question is, can you live your life with your partner without a trace of doubt and without an inkling of fear that they may leave you?

to love and be loved is the greatest thing that has been bestowed upon us.

we search eternally for a happy ending that only exist when we let it. but with so much hate and doubt in the wold, not many have found such a thing.

our partners in life are only flesh and bone. can you love them beyond that? can you see pass the illusion of the flesh and truly see whats in their minds? can you truly love them for who they are and not only their bodies? true love is but a rare beauty many have failed to find.