i'm in a sadistic mood today. so i thought i may as well show a video i found on youtube to represent what my mood is today.
WARNING: contains brief nudity, blood and gore. lots of blood and gore. lots.
by the way, it's from the anime Elfen Lied. damn good anime. but very gory. recommended for children above the age of 13.
damn i love this video...
22 December 2007
11 December 2007
Personal Development Leadership
Personal Development Leadership. otherwise known as PDL is a course which is dedicated to help youths and leaders to become greater in all aspects. although i have just finished a students course for leadership, i can only say that the course was annoying.
i'm a bloody stubborn person so i'm already mentally shutting things out. but even so, it's not like i don't know their techniques.
whats more important is the fact that i've learnt something.
1) tolerance=i know how to suppress my anger to it's maximum so that i will not smack the trainers faces
2)patients=i can wait till the entire queue is over before i have a meal despite being hungry
3)more tolerance=so many people i have to stop myself from punching to death
4)awareness= apparently i am dumb, deaf, blind, can't count and can't read
5)my super power=i realized that i can hide my real emotions just by writing some qualities and weaknesses. talk about bad interpretation.
6)people=some people really have guts to look into my non-smiling and scary face of doom and say 'hello'
7)eyeballs=one of the trainers have the biggest eyeballs i've ever seen in my life. another has the smallest too.
8)huggable=actually found some people who have really huggable characters. haven't seen those in a while.
finally, despite this being a short post, i would like to say that PDL is good for all layers of society UNLESS you have a uniquely odd character like mine (boasting boasting. ahem).
i'm a bloody stubborn person so i'm already mentally shutting things out. but even so, it's not like i don't know their techniques.
whats more important is the fact that i've learnt something.
1) tolerance=i know how to suppress my anger to it's maximum so that i will not smack the trainers faces
2)patients=i can wait till the entire queue is over before i have a meal despite being hungry
3)more tolerance=so many people i have to stop myself from punching to death
4)awareness= apparently i am dumb, deaf, blind, can't count and can't read
5)my super power=i realized that i can hide my real emotions just by writing some qualities and weaknesses. talk about bad interpretation.
6)people=some people really have guts to look into my non-smiling and scary face of doom and say 'hello'
7)eyeballs=one of the trainers have the biggest eyeballs i've ever seen in my life. another has the smallest too.
8)huggable=actually found some people who have really huggable characters. haven't seen those in a while.
finally, despite this being a short post, i would like to say that PDL is good for all layers of society UNLESS you have a uniquely odd character like mine (boasting boasting. ahem).
30 June 2007
Am I Mature?
How far has your maturity level gotten?
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once upon a time, i took a quiz to check my so called maturity level. why? because in the same week, 2 people have told me the way i think is considered mature. result of quiz is as shown above.
so am i mature? someone once asked me whether or not i would accept an offer to a one night stand. i said most likely. then and there, she offered me. i'm not saying shes ugly or i'm scared, but the only reason i declined was because it wasn't the ethical thing to do. it simply wasn't the right thing. hence, i'm still a virgin. no surprise there. thinking back to how i first answered her question, it came to me that some people think they would probably do something planned during an emergency or panic, and yet, we can only see how we react when we are truely faced with that particular situation.
does anyone has a maturity test or quiz out there for me? apparently, one friend had prepared a survey and i was part of it. according to her, i am the only person who answered in the most matured way. shocking.
but the greatest thing that has come to my attention is that whether or not i am truly matured. how do you know? must you "feel it in your gut" to know? my way of thinking is such that there is always more than one scenario and almost every situation has a protocol. when relaxed, judgments are based upon what is most suitable. however, when faced with a situation of more spontaneity, we don't usually make the right judgments (ends up with sex, drugs, smoking...). yet it seems amazing that i have a fixed protocol of ethics and morality during these situation.
back to maturity. am i? am i not? here's an example: with my ability to influence a person's way of thinking, i am capable of at least having sex with one girl every week. and yet, i choose not to. i am also capable of manipulating close friends so much into believing me, they would die for me. yet i don't. i am even more capable to use a person without guilt and not letting that person feel abused. yet i don't. is choosing to do the right thing considered to be mature? or just stupid since i could have so much advantage?
here's another example: i'm a guy. hence, testerone. i consider myself to be perverted (depending on your interpretation that is) but some of my female says that what i show is natural. your choice. me being perverted means sexually orientated jokes during tuition and among friends. also thinking about sex a number of times in a day (despite being a virgin). also masturbating. also porn surfing and fantasies. etc. etc. despite having a heavily "polluted" thinking, i am still only mentally perverted (thankfully). i am perverted. but not to the point of verbally and physically harassing someone. but a pervert nonetheless. does that indicate immaturity? or just hormones?
being only 17 years old (year 2007), some say my maturity level separates from others. i personally think it's my weirdness factor that makes me an alien anyway. for anyone out there who has got some maturity test or quizzes or happen to have made one yourselves, feel free to e-mail them to me at sucker_d_polvis@yahoo.com
i intend to reply your e-mails but i will certainly post the questions, answers, and results here. until next time, find me for anything worth talking about. ask things worth asking. and send me some of them quizzes.
20 June 2007
My Birthday
my birthday during the 11th of june happened to be on a monday. torture no doubt the fact that someone told a teacher which resulted in the whole class singing the 'happy birthday' song to me.
presents?
there are a few. although some of my friends did give it to me a week later. the funniest was a card that had a sexually related joke. i never really thought that someone might dared to give one but wow, i got proven wrong that day. guess having a reputation of being a pervert can really affect society.
cake?
the only cake i had was with my family and we had it one day before my birthday which happened to be a sunday. the only reason of that being so is that not all family members happen to be free on my actual birthday. the cake was a chocolate cheese cake and was flatter and larger than a normal cake. one word describes it: yummy.
all in all, i would say it was a day worth remembering. having almost everything going right for one day was surely satisfying. i think i might have felt a tingle of happiness.
presents?
there are a few. although some of my friends did give it to me a week later. the funniest was a card that had a sexually related joke. i never really thought that someone might dared to give one but wow, i got proven wrong that day. guess having a reputation of being a pervert can really affect society.
cake?
the only cake i had was with my family and we had it one day before my birthday which happened to be a sunday. the only reason of that being so is that not all family members happen to be free on my actual birthday. the cake was a chocolate cheese cake and was flatter and larger than a normal cake. one word describes it: yummy.
all in all, i would say it was a day worth remembering. having almost everything going right for one day was surely satisfying. i think i might have felt a tingle of happiness.
The End
my second official poem. written on 26 march 2007. another depressing poem to share. please ask permission if you should so want to use it.
The End
when will the infinite pain find it's end?
the sadness and sorrow that never mends.
hollowness, fear, depression and rage,
these emotions are getting harder to cage.
should i flee? should i run? should i hide?
what must i do to make it subside?
the things that break me up within,
with no support i could ever lean.
endless, are the days of my pain,
and anger that rushes, it's hard to keep sane.
solitude, sadness and suicidal thoughts,
crying for help, but nothing be brought.
the end, the push, the point of breaking,
although anger and fear, but never shaking.
the end, the cut, the fading of light,
no tears of regrets, but the slipping of life.
The End
when will the infinite pain find it's end?
the sadness and sorrow that never mends.
hollowness, fear, depression and rage,
these emotions are getting harder to cage.
should i flee? should i run? should i hide?
what must i do to make it subside?
the things that break me up within,
with no support i could ever lean.
endless, are the days of my pain,
and anger that rushes, it's hard to keep sane.
solitude, sadness and suicidal thoughts,
crying for help, but nothing be brought.
the end, the push, the point of breaking,
although anger and fear, but never shaking.
the end, the cut, the fading of light,
no tears of regrets, but the slipping of life.
Gone
a little poem i wrote around 2006. please ask me for permission if in any case you should want to use my poem. but i would wonder why you should want to duplicate a poem as depressing as this one.
GONE
where did you go?
why have you left me here, so lonely with no purpose,
no feeling of happiness,
to leave is like turning me into an empty shell,
to be hallow of feelings,
no happiness,
that is what i am,
what i was, and what i am to be.
i am alone,
with no one to cling to,
and no one to hold,
to share moments with no one at all.
the solitude is hell,
a hell i have to live with,
for the rest of my life.
why am i still here?
with no purpose to fulfill i am merely no one's worth.
only an insignificant person.
the end of my life is near,
i can see it from here.
GONE
where did you go?
why have you left me here, so lonely with no purpose,
no feeling of happiness,
to leave is like turning me into an empty shell,
to be hallow of feelings,
no happiness,
that is what i am,
what i was, and what i am to be.
i am alone,
with no one to cling to,
and no one to hold,
to share moments with no one at all.
the solitude is hell,
a hell i have to live with,
for the rest of my life.
why am i still here?
with no purpose to fulfill i am merely no one's worth.
only an insignificant person.
the end of my life is near,
i can see it from here.
24 May 2007
Fun Tests 3
even more random quiz...
all who are getting bored say "I"..
| What Ancient Warrior are you? Hoplite The Hoplite was a heavy infantryman, they were primarily drawn from the middle class, who could afford the cost of the armaments. Almost all the famous men of ancient Greece, even philosophers and playwrights fought as hoplites at some point in their lives
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| What kind of gum are you? Double mint Quiet, really smart |
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| Are you white and nerdy? (any race or gender welcome) just nerdy |
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| Do you get bored easily? You get bored way easily, or you just don't have an attention span big enough to do something for a long time. Just like me....Stay Away from me. |
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| What weird job would you have? Ninja how did YOU know..............? |
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| Are you just another person in the crowd? Nope You're original as can be! But that could also be a bad thing...
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| Are you normal? Normal You are normal. I am proud of you.... really?..... no. But good job.
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| What artist are you? Rihanna! You are the beautiful and sweet flirt rihanna! Lucky YOU!
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Fun Tests 2
more random quizzes and tests taken from the net. my results.
wow.. that's a lot so far.. more to come.
| which naruto couple are you? naruhina its love but unoticed
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| which american idol are you? Jordin Sparks You are just like Jordin! Sweet, cute, funny, cool and you have a great personality. And unlike jordin you will grow whiskas! EnJoY
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| How annoying are you, really? a tad only a couple people find you annoying |
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| How Confident Are You? Healthy Self Image You've managed to develop a healthy self image and have confidence in the unique person you are
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| What is your perfect pet? Dog You have a sense of loyalty like no other, so the dog is the perfect pet for you!
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Fun Tests
random tests and quizzes i found on the net and decided to answer.
more to come soon.
| How sexually perverted are you? Pretty Pervy You just cant help yourself, can you? Maybe if you took your mind out of the gutter for 5 minutes you might be able to make something out of your life. |
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08 May 2007
Love
first, what is love? wiki's definition of love can be found here. however, this article is to explain the basic roots of love.
there are mainly 3 most important component for love. these are trust, communication and respect. these 3 can be said to basically be the foundation of all love.
trust is important for if you don't trust your partner in the first place, there is practically no point to be together in the first place. trust is important to instill a sense of belief for one another. if both partners don't trust each other, then they will inevitably encounter with annoying paranoia problems.
communication is an important aspect that some people ignore sometimes. although a couple may trust each other to the maximum, without communication, their love may never grow. a couple must learn to talk to each other and express themselves or they may well be on the way to a bad relationship. sometimes we can't always guess what is trying to be said, we must just talk directly.
respect is probably the most important portion there is. if we do not respect our partner, there is a space of disrespect that will grow to become hate. we must learn to respect the choices our partners let them know they must respect you too. of course there are arguments in a relationship, but sometimes we must give way and sometimes we must stand our ground. either way, we must respect each other.
if you fail to do these 3 simple things with your partner, then you are considered a failure. without these 3 simple aspects, your love life may be starting to spiral downwards. this also applies to love for your family and so on. these 3 things are the most important that there is. i'm not saying there isn't more but these 3 can be considered the foundation so please don't ignore it if you happen to think you love them but don't think that the 3 conditions apply. if you think you have any questions, feel free to e-mail me at: sucker_d_polvis@yahoo.com
there are mainly 3 most important component for love. these are trust, communication and respect. these 3 can be said to basically be the foundation of all love.
trust is important for if you don't trust your partner in the first place, there is practically no point to be together in the first place. trust is important to instill a sense of belief for one another. if both partners don't trust each other, then they will inevitably encounter with annoying paranoia problems.
communication is an important aspect that some people ignore sometimes. although a couple may trust each other to the maximum, without communication, their love may never grow. a couple must learn to talk to each other and express themselves or they may well be on the way to a bad relationship. sometimes we can't always guess what is trying to be said, we must just talk directly.
respect is probably the most important portion there is. if we do not respect our partner, there is a space of disrespect that will grow to become hate. we must learn to respect the choices our partners let them know they must respect you too. of course there are arguments in a relationship, but sometimes we must give way and sometimes we must stand our ground. either way, we must respect each other.
if you fail to do these 3 simple things with your partner, then you are considered a failure. without these 3 simple aspects, your love life may be starting to spiral downwards. this also applies to love for your family and so on. these 3 things are the most important that there is. i'm not saying there isn't more but these 3 can be considered the foundation so please don't ignore it if you happen to think you love them but don't think that the 3 conditions apply. if you think you have any questions, feel free to e-mail me at: sucker_d_polvis@yahoo.com
Chain mails
ever got that random e-mail from that random friend with a forwarded message that says you will die in how many days if you don't repost it how many times? i personally could have died hundreds of times but hey, i'm alive. then there are those annoying one's saying you will be cursed in a relationship unless you repost it how many times. and finally, there is those every time you repost it will contribute money to a victim of whatever. this is possible of course but there is no encoding at the end, and, there are much more better ways to raise funds.
let's not forget of course friendster. in the bulletin board and messages, you could always see one about a certain someone claiming to be owning friendster and saying you must forward it to 20 people to avoid account termination. i didn't forward it and i'm still around. it can't be true because all friendster messages and bulletins cannot have encoding placed upon them. then there is the usual crap chain mails that are already stated above.
so why do people keep sending chain mails? because they got nothing better to do.
and how do we stop these people from sending useless chain mails and wasting our time? simple, just send them the information above or redirect them to read it here.
'what about "good" chain mail?' you may ask. also simple. any chain mail that is non time wasting is worth re-sending. a good example would be chain mail games. but even so, i strongly not recommend sending chain mails. it is too time wasting. however, if you are just bored, then there is nothing i can do.
let's not forget of course friendster. in the bulletin board and messages, you could always see one about a certain someone claiming to be owning friendster and saying you must forward it to 20 people to avoid account termination. i didn't forward it and i'm still around. it can't be true because all friendster messages and bulletins cannot have encoding placed upon them. then there is the usual crap chain mails that are already stated above.
so why do people keep sending chain mails? because they got nothing better to do.
and how do we stop these people from sending useless chain mails and wasting our time? simple, just send them the information above or redirect them to read it here.
'what about "good" chain mail?' you may ask. also simple. any chain mail that is non time wasting is worth re-sending. a good example would be chain mail games. but even so, i strongly not recommend sending chain mails. it is too time wasting. however, if you are just bored, then there is nothing i can do.
22 January 2007
Love and Romance
it seems amazing with the fact that an English lesson turned into a talk about love and romance. the thing is, where's the difference? a person that can love doesn't mean that they can be romantic and vice verse. being romantic is having the ability to charm. but love is completely different. when a person is only romantic, they are wearing a mask that shows as if that they are in love. but in reality, they are merely bluffing. a person can say that they love you but not mean it. but because we find the person being romantic, we tend to believe that it is true.
but what if they're both? putting it simply, a person needs to know whether or not it is true love that they are dealing with, or just a mere infatuation. so this basically brings us down to one possible question that we must all think about. what is love?
to know what is love, we must first know what is loving. there are many type of love. love for your parents, siblings. love for your country, love for music, etc. in this case we are exploring about the love for a partner. loving someone ( your partner ) is the willingness to care for that person without condition such as illnesses and physical changes. when loving someone, you are willing to care despite changes around you and your partner. loving someone is also the ability to stand up for yourself. loving is the bravery to have your freedom and choice, NOT doing everything your partner wants to. love CAN'T be represented by committing suicide or harming oneself because when together, they have already given each other their lives by spending the rest of their lives together. hurting yourself to prove your love just means that your partner doesn't truly love you to be willing to see you being hurt in the first place. and especially for girls, loving doesn't mean that you must sleep with them. people that threaten to leave you or sleep with them are people who you should not have been with in the first place. love is most importantly about respect. respect for yourself and those around you.
when someone truly loves you, they give you your space, they respect you, and they never fail to make you happier. when someone really loves you, they would be willing to accept it if you say no. they would be happy for you and constantly encourage you. and most importantly they can be happy just because you are happy.
more and more people are having short relationships. this is because when they get a feeling, they automatically assume that it is love when it is in fact only an infatuation. an infatuation means that you are liking someone for certain reasons only. money, fame, beauty, etc. upon finding out that their partners have bad qualities within them, they break up. in worse cases, a person gets into a relationship with only an intention to use the person.
we constantly hope to find true and everlasting love. but looking to hard can lead to desperation. and desperation can lead to considering anyone that comes in your way. let time allow love to find its way to you. at the mean time, love could just be staring at your face and you may have not noticed.
but what if they're both? putting it simply, a person needs to know whether or not it is true love that they are dealing with, or just a mere infatuation. so this basically brings us down to one possible question that we must all think about. what is love?
to know what is love, we must first know what is loving. there are many type of love. love for your parents, siblings. love for your country, love for music, etc. in this case we are exploring about the love for a partner. loving someone ( your partner ) is the willingness to care for that person without condition such as illnesses and physical changes. when loving someone, you are willing to care despite changes around you and your partner. loving someone is also the ability to stand up for yourself. loving is the bravery to have your freedom and choice, NOT doing everything your partner wants to. love CAN'T be represented by committing suicide or harming oneself because when together, they have already given each other their lives by spending the rest of their lives together. hurting yourself to prove your love just means that your partner doesn't truly love you to be willing to see you being hurt in the first place. and especially for girls, loving doesn't mean that you must sleep with them. people that threaten to leave you or sleep with them are people who you should not have been with in the first place. love is most importantly about respect. respect for yourself and those around you.
when someone truly loves you, they give you your space, they respect you, and they never fail to make you happier. when someone really loves you, they would be willing to accept it if you say no. they would be happy for you and constantly encourage you. and most importantly they can be happy just because you are happy.
more and more people are having short relationships. this is because when they get a feeling, they automatically assume that it is love when it is in fact only an infatuation. an infatuation means that you are liking someone for certain reasons only. money, fame, beauty, etc. upon finding out that their partners have bad qualities within them, they break up. in worse cases, a person gets into a relationship with only an intention to use the person.
we constantly hope to find true and everlasting love. but looking to hard can lead to desperation. and desperation can lead to considering anyone that comes in your way. let time allow love to find its way to you. at the mean time, love could just be staring at your face and you may have not noticed.
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