Valentine 2009

a little late for such a post i would say but its not like you missed anything important anyways. caution, post may be emo.

two days after valentine's day this year, it was a monday. being my usual self i wrote a piece of literature on how i felt on that day. though i must say, it follows my usual theme of depression. how strange the way my brain is wired.

sometimes i truly wonder, am i so different from everyone else? statistically speaking, there has to be someone like me out there somewhere. still, the fact that most of the time people predict me wrongly surely saddens me.

does it really seem like i would destroy the world if i could? does it really seem like i choose death over life? does it really seem like i would choose war rather than peace? perhaps my demeanor really does seem like this. a lack of expression perhaps? i don't know.

anyways, here's the short literature i wrote two days after valentines day. call it a poem if you must.

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the broken valentines - 16 February 2009

like a dimming light. ah, how the fools walk around me.
flames to be fueled or extinguished? glowing cast iron, freshly made.
will it cool? will it cool?

on the path that is different, their cold metal hitting each other.
oh, the small sparks it makes.
i watch in amusement.

has the day end when it begun?
how irritating the flies of this meat. its red blood flows pointlessly.
how i ponder its creation.

like yesterday, the night is filled with darkness.
the same sky looks upon me. how common this strange day seems.
as common as another day. have i simply not aged more?