Run

Run run run run run run. Forget the little things. Let it not bother you. Distractions will be the death of you, just keep running running running.
Everything is trivial, irrelevant, pointless. As long as you can run, you can survive. Your feet is made for you to run run run run run.

Don't ask why. Don't think about what was and what could be. Don't wonder what it is you dread. Just run.

It is not the purpose of life to guide. Its purpose is only itself, so keep running. Just keep running.

The higher you fly, the harder you fall. Just stay on the ground and run run run run run.

If people try to stop you ignore them. If people ask why is it you run, tell them you have to. If people question your sanity, tell them running is the only way you stay sane.

Watch them all as they fall in line, so predictable, so boring. But not you. You run. And you keep on running.

If there ever comes a day you feet breaks beneath you, don't cry. Your sanity may slip away, but know that if it does, someone else will receive it. And I will once again tell them to run run run run run.

Tea Party

Oh how sweet the taste of sin upon my lips. Stay a while and join me. Sit down, chat for a while. The night is still young.

One two tree four five six seven. How on earth did a plant get into my list of numbers? I smell firewood. Help me with this.

I want to breath helium and laugh to death with a funny voice. Join me. I have more than enough helium. We could seal off a room and just laugh our lives away.

Let's take a train to a land where angels weep and devils cry. Where the sun never sets and the moon smiles upon us. Where the desert sand drowns our toes like a fuzzy carpet. Where the air is thick with fumes of volcanic gases. Where plants are only seen to be dead or dying. Let's join our hands and walk down the road of time and look for the fruit which bears only once a hundred years. If it isn't there, let us wait together under its tree, hand in hand, head against head. shoulder against shoulder. We could sleep until its flowers bloom and bears its fruit once more.

Are you enjoying your drink? It would be a shame if it is not to your tastes. Would you like to have something else? What about some peanuts? You shouldn't be so silent. Let us retire to my home. You can meet the other inhabitants. We could have some tea. It would do you some good.

Do you not like its porcelain skin? Its laces, its hair? Beautiful are they not? How graceful the skill that is required to carve such an elegant character.

I know the balcony is dull. But if you look through a telescope, you can see the poor sods jumping to their deaths every now and then. I got this place specifically for this reason. Everything else, I'm sure you've notice, is as dull as can be.

Sorry for the lack of sugar. I stand by principle to never have sugar in my tea.

Thank you for appreciating the joy of silence. It greatly appeals to me to have silence as company once in a while.

Smile for me once more before you leave. Do tell if you are visiting again. It would be nice to see a face I have once seen before.

Food! Glorious Food!

Seeing to as I have accidentally fell asleep hours before bedtime, I have became too hungry to continue sleeping when the time comes. This post features two new food items I have tried out this month. The first one is a spectacular burger from a new shop in the food court.

It comes in beef or chicken, is stuffed with vegetables, tomato sauce, tomato slices, and onions. Whats so spectacular about it? Here's a picture of it with a 50 cent coin:

Yes, this burger is large. Very large. Not the largest in the world but selling at only RM8, it is definitely spectacularly filling. Its so good, I ate all the vegetables, onions, and tomato slices along with it.

Second is a nice little dessert from a shop across the road. This is a little something that is tried out spontaneously and completely based on looking at its picture. At first glance of the picture, I would have thought it was a cold dessert. When it had actually arrived, it proved to be something that is actually warm. With ingredients consisting of bread, honey, banana, and various other things, this was surprisingly more delicious than I had expected.

All things considered, these two foods are definitely something I would recommend to people who want to try something new. Although personally, you might want to share the burger in case you have a small stomach. One half was enough to almost completely fill me. When I was done with the whole thing, I felt a little like vomiting.

Wish List 2010

I am writing this almost purely because my butt is hurting me right now. Almost.

Whether you may or may not know my birthday is coming soon, you, like me, may have problems finding suitable gifts for people. In my case right now, I will solve your problem by telling you exactly what I want. A nice soft pillow for me to sit on which can remain comfortable after long hours. I am serious when I say this. Yes, I would like a pillow to sit on. It does not need to feel like I am sitting on cloud but a just a pillow would be nice. So this is number one on my (very impossible) wish list.

1 - Sitting Pillow

Now for those of you (though admittedly would be very little) who know that I lack proper tools, a number of small to large things I would like is a small screwdriver set. Flat head. In addition to that, a drill with various sizes of drill bit. The speed of drilling should be in ratio with how hard I press the trigger. So,

2 - micro screwdriver set
3 - a very good drill

Asking for money feels very new years to be honest but for those who do not feel like giving me enough to build a performance computer rig can gladly get me an external storage device. 7200rpm is best regardless of 2.5" or 3.5" but is you get me solid state, I would use it internally. Also, while my mouse is slowly turning senile still working fine, getting me a wired mouse that has more 5000dpi would be absolutely adored. Hence,

4 - External storage
5 - Very sensitive mouse

Oh yes, I forgot about a full HD (1920 x 1080) monitor. So that too I guess. Though personally, I prefer it being in small sizes although it is full HD so 21.5" is preferred.

6 - 21.5" Full HD monitor

Finally, if you happen to be some random person wanting to spend all your money, I will now re-write the list but continuing on with things that money most likely cannot even buy.

1 - Sitting Pillow
2 - Micro Screwdriver Set
3 - A Very Good Drill
4 - External Storage (SSD Preferred)
5 - A Very Sensitive Mouse
6 - 21.5" Full HD monitor
7 - The best lenovo laptop that has survived the torture test with exceptional grades
8 - Enough money to built a super performance rig including a bluray read/write drive, 3 HD monitors, about 10 SSD's so make a super fast Raid0 cluster, and any graphic card that has good performance to quality ratio
9 - A Macbook Pro
10 - A queen sized bed
11 - My personal toilet connected to my room
12 - The extinction of various bugs that I dislike
13 - Particularly the extinction of mosquitoes
14 - A new and very powerful hand phone
15 - A pico projector
16 - Bolster and Pillows (no limit in quantity)
17 - Fluffy Toys to put around my bed (don't judge me)
18 - A car
19 - A house
20 - The moon

I think I will stop at 20. I would go on but it would gradually start to get irrational.

It Really Bothers Me.

Sometimes I notice things that are useless and irrelevant. Not so much when I watch anime but it happens anyway. Though sometimes too small to be noted as an inconsistent, I thought I would point one out anyway.

The candy either simply appears, gets there within a short frame of time, or I'm just thinking too much.

A Little Change

As mentioned in my previous post, I switched up to Windows 7. While it is a 64 bit OS, most of what I wanted functioned somewhat smoothly. It was until recently that I had felt a need to change things.

I had always had the impression that running a 32 bit program in a 64 bit environment is less resource efficient. Although simply asking around had confirmed this, I have yet bothered to Google it myself.

The first most obvious thing that came into mind when thinking about program efficiency is of course video playback. Specifically, High-Definition video playback.

Previously Preferred: KMPlayer

Now Using: Media Player Classic (64 bit)

After some light research, and making some simple mistakes, I decided to install K-Lite Codec Pack 64 bit version. Then through trial and error I was finally able to make my machine play 1080p videos without a loss of quality smoothly. Though there is still some tearing, the end results were very satisfying.

The second issue that bugged me the most is my file manager. Using a 32 bit file manager in a 64 bit environment had a very obvious difference when right clicking.

Previous Preferred: NexusFile

Using Now: Q-Dir (64 bit)

While it lacks the cosmetic qualities that NexusFile holds, it has its various good qualities. Although I would prefer NexusFile much more, Q-Dir is a very good replacement until a 64 bit version of NexusFile comes out. Boasting up to 4 panels for file exploring and coupled with tabbed view, it truly is meant for a power user.

Third, internet browsing. Currently still using Firefox and Chrome. Chrome's dev channel is finally not crashing so hard on me now but with orbit integration missing from it, I might just stay in Firefox a little while longer.

Both these internet browsers lack an official 64 bit version. Unofficial releases were said to be much better and efficient but the lack of my beloved addons would be severely saddening.

The most recent change to these two is the addition of a little plugin called Xmarks for both browsers. With this enabled, I am now able to sync bookmarks effortlessly between both browsers or any other browser that I may need to use in the future which is not from my machine. Also a great way to backup if considering reformatting or if a virus destroys your machine.

That's pretty much all that has changed in my machine so far. Just replacing some programs with more efficient programs. Hoping to not see a *32 symbol behind any of the processes in my task manager in the future.

Links:
K-Lite Codec Pack 64 bit
Q-Dir
Xmarks
NexusFile

A Life Without Dreams

In more than one occasion have I the experience when one asks me what are my plans for the future. What are my dreams. What do I plan to do. In response, I would most commonly say, "I have absolutely no idea".

It may or may not be a commonly known fact that I indeed have no dreams. I ask myself the same question sometimes and a conclusion seems far from my grasp.

In the simplest sense, I want a simple life. Get a job, work, retire. Not much of a retirement plan but I have not really thought about what job I would want either. In contrast, I also want many things in life. A powerful computer, a nice house, good food, etc.

The thing about not having a goal in life is like throwing darts onto a board then drawing a target around it. Without a goal, there is no clear direction where you would want to go or what plan you should make to shorten your journey there.

Having a goal is like the finishing line of a race. Without it, you do not know when to stop, nor would you have the motivation to run in the first place.

Have a dream in life and go at it with full force.

Of Chrome and Firefox

I have always been a huge fan of Firefox because it was just so customizable. Then along came Chrome with its epic speed and quite frankly, it was enough to made me switch. Until now.

Many of those who know me know that I am pretty much a Google fanboy so it would make sense that I am on the dev channel of Chrome getting the latest and most unstable updates that I can ever get my hands on.

While this makes my Chrome experience a less stable one, the crashing has always been bearable if it ever occurred at all in the first place. The latest update, however, seems to haunt me with crashes even when I try to minimize the window.

While I could simply change back to the stable channel or even beta, the functions that were not transferred are simply too addictive to live without. Deciding not to shove it aside too quickly, I decided to reinstall Firefox and see how far I can mod it to make is as close to Chrome as I humanly can, considering my lack of skills.

So far, I managed to squeeze in a number of addons to help make it at least look similar. The theme gives it the proper colour set and the similar grouping of buttons were easy enough. The tabs on the top were a modded to have a different max and min width value as to preserve a Chrome feel though I changed the max according to personal taste.

The status bar remains simply because auto-hiding it seems buggy and there is no hovering alternative. Still looking for a way to completely remove it.

Bookmarks were manually imported and not synced with Chrome bookmarks. Missing features also include the lack of an incognito mode. Seeing to as this is only temporary until the next dev update, it doesn't seem to matter much.

As of now it is something that I would consider to be my flavour of Chrome with some minor functions missing. I clearly like the download helper and orbit integration is very much welcomed.

All things considered, I might just switch back if Chrome continues to suffer in performance.

Windows 7 Ultimate

Yes, surprising as it may seem, I have finally bothered to reformat my laptop into Windows 7 Ultimate. The only real reason being I want to use my full 4GB of RAM but it was an interesting experience nonetheless.



Once I got all my commonly used programs installed or replaced, the shell is once again changed to bb4win and programs such as Samurize and typeandrun were placed into startup via their native settings.

For anyone that has seen my laptop before I have reformatted, they would easily say I did not change anything. Almost everything is the same with the exception that I am actually using Windows 7.

First Gundam Assembly Ever

I have never been much of a Gundam fan or even a mecha fan in general. But when people keep talking about the joys of assembling a Gundam, I knew I had to try it one day just to understand the feeling.


Of course, I never had any experience with this so when I manage to cut it not so perfectly for the first time, I was instantly discouraged.

Another thing worth hating is of course those teeny tiny stickers. Granted this is a 1/144 scale so it is small to begin with, but big hands and small stickers do not go together at all.

After spending roughly three hours plus to finish assembling this, I can almost understand why people like assembling Gundams in the first place.


In my case at least, I simply like to cut each piece out as neatly as I can and put everything together. The joy of seeing it complete with minimal flaws is a feeling unlike any other.

This is certainly an experience I would not mind reliving. I might just get addicted to assembling Gundam~